something big cropped up just before i went for training a few hrs ago.
me & bf had an argument and somehow i know i am not at fault.
i tried to clarify things but it got bf unhappy for onlygodknowsthereason.
went for training and only to realise that i was physically there,
but not mentally though.
i was neither here nor there, i felt quite lost most of the times.
think it got worst till both Jaz(captain) & Brenda(coach)
asked me if im feeling ok.
i felt bad that i brought my personal matters to the field
where i know i shldnt have.
i dont wanna miss trgns if possible coz
i wldnt want my stamina to slacken. (like seriously)

got home after that, tried ma best not to think so much abt it.
quickly i washed up
& just when i thought of putting all the sorrows behind me..
i was freaking irritated by dad big time.
told him that i might be gg out tmrw and at the next instance,
he said that i go out most of d bloody time! he keep on saying that la..
gosh.. doesnt he seriously know that i have been staying at home
ever since he was admitted to hosp.
did he even freakingly realise that?!
my, i really need a breather.
can somebody, anyone out there feel me...